Hello Lover!!!

Okay readers if you know me at all you know how much I love shoes!! I am so excited for this month it is Chris and my 8th anniversary on the 27th! I am also so excited for the Sex and the city movie... so needless to say I have been shopping for some new super hot and sexy heels! Well I found one pair so far and I cant decide if they are for the girls night out to the movie or for my super hot sexy date with my super hot sexy husband for our anniversary? Chris is taking me out but I have no idea what we are doing or where we are going.. its supposed to be a surprise. So I will let you all know.

So I absolutely love Sex and the City.... if nothing else I loved watching all the pretty shoes and the incredible fashion statements and beautiful cloths! So me and my gals are going to go out and have some fun with dinner and a movie! I like the character Carrie in the show love shoes! I love a good pair of expensive or inexpensive pair of heels, wedges, stilettos, etc. They just make you feel so pretty! Here is my newest pair of shoes!

Now you know why I say hello lover!!! I also want to add that the way they make my legs look is great!!! I love them I love them, and the bonus is that chris loves them as well!

Bath time fun and my smiley little dude

It's been a while since my last post, but in my defense I have been busy trying to get my family and my little life on a schedule.. it doesn't seem to be working one day is different from the next! I am slowly realizing that there are some things that I just have to let go, like I don't have to vacuum and mop twice a day that its okay if I just do it once every other day! I am realizing that I make a lot of my own anxiety... but its so hard I feel like if my house is not clean then I am a bad wife and mom. I feel like I can never keep things clean and neat because Ashlyn is following behind me messing it up again. well I have decided that my little 5 year old is old enough to start having a chore list and instead of making myself crazy picking up after her several times a day and me making her bed and cleaning her bathroom... she is going to do it. The rule is that every morning she gets up and gets dressed makes her bed and uses the bathroom and cleans up after she uses it... then if its a school day she doesn't get the toys out until after school she may color and do arts and crafts or go outside, and at the end of everyday before our bedtime routine she cleans up her play room and her bedroom, this way while she is at school I can get the cleaning done for the week faster cause I don't have to pick her toys up as well and on the days she is home we can enjoy each other cause I am keeping up with my house work and I don't have to be aggravated by her messiness because she is helping me and I am teaching her how to clean up after herself!!

Okay enough of my spouting off at how I am a compulsive clean freak and a little obsessive compulsive about it and other things and another one of my obsessions is taking pictures of my kids taking their bath.... I love clean clean kids and the way they smell oooh its so sweet! Ashlyn loves to help with Collin and the one thing she had not helped me with was his bath so I got Collin in the bath with her and she helped wash him she was so gentle with him.
Collin is getting so big and I cannot believe that he is already 2 and 1/2 months old its so funny that at the end of 9 months we cannot wait until the baby is out we feel like being pregnant is never going to end and then once our precious little ones our here they grow up so fast and all you can do is try and love them enough and teach them what they need to know to go through this life. I love my two children and I prey that I am doing right by my children. I hope that they know that at the end of the day no matter what that they are loved and we will make it through life together.! I am so excited that I caught Collin smiling and laughing on camera, he is just starting to laugh and really get smiley at different things so its cool that I caught it on camera. You can totally see his dimples.

The joys of children

So I was totally fooling myself that two children wouldn't be that big of an adjustment' because Ashlyn is 5 and she is so independent and she would be my big helper! Don't get me wrong Ashlyn loves to help me and she is great with Collin. Ashlyn prides herself on what a good big sister she is! With that being said she is not as independent as I thought.. she still relies on me for so much! She may be able to dress herself, brush her own teeth, get ready for bed, etc... but she still needs my guidance to know what to do and when to do it. Instead of packing things for one child when we go places I have to remember to pack for both... getting use to caring for both of them although their needs are different is still a huge adjustment and that took some time to get use to! Collin is now sleeping through the night and is adjusting to life outside the whom quite nicely now. He is a good little dude and I am so glad he is all mine. Ashlyn is all registered for kindergarten and she is so excited. Although getting her physical for kindergarten and having to get four shots wasn't fun she was so brave and let them do it with minimal crying, it helped that daddy was there!! So with my schedule starting to even out and Collin becoming more predictable I have started working out.... The baby weight is so much harder to loose with your second then your first at least for me it is! So I have been walking/running with some girlfriends every morning and then going to the gym for some body works classes one a week.... oh my goodness was it hard to stick with the first three days but now I am finding that the walk/run in the mornings gives me more energy to do everything with my kids and cleaning my house. So for all of you who need more energy exercising really does help with that.... I know I know I didn't believe it ether at first but its true. I am still trying to figure out how to spend quality time with just Ashlyn. I try to spend one on one time with her everyday so that she doesn't feel so abandoned by me. Everyday that I get to spend at least a half an hour with her just the two of us,( it doesn't mater what) I notice a difference in her behavior.... she is more obedient and she is just all together happier and easier to hadle. She amazes me with how smart she is and is continuing to get. I just hope that I have prepared her enough for her school years to start... I know that she still is a little girl and I still have a lot of teaching left but kindergarten came so fast and I just hope She knows that I am here for her no matter what that I will protect her and be there for her through everything. Collin wow I cant believe he is already two months I couldn't wait to get him out and now it seems like we are at warp speed. Its funny raising children is so difficult and at times can be depressing but the bond and love that I have with and for my children is what makes life worth living that also includes my husband. At times my little family is overwhelming and I go a little crazy okay somewhat crazy, I wouldn't trade, or change them for anything in the world! Life is a learning process and I will continue to do the best I can for the people I love.

I'm Crazy!!

Okay with everything that has been going on in my life with the new baby, getting Ashlyn registered for kindergarten and her dentist appointment, and Chris's promotions; I feel like I have no control over anything that is going on. Of course with all this going on my hormones are going crazy, I am up and just as quick I am down. Collin is starting to regulate and he is sleeping through the night... yeah! That totally helps with my emotions so I am hoping that this is the beginning of everything starting to work itself out.

So it was my Birthday like two weeks ago and I just want to give a shout out to my girls Megan and Kyla oh yeah and to their handsome husbands. Chris did take my birthday off but got called in anyway so the Parkers and the Browns made my day special. They took me to dinner at Chillies and then we went to the Parkers and played rock band on the Xbox it was great all of our kids had fun as well. On days like my Birthday I miss my family and my sisters they are so great to me and it makes it hard so I am so blessed to have great friends that are just like my sisters. I love living in California even though I miss my family, Chris and I have great friends who we consider family! Here are some pictures from my Birthday.

Okay so there are some pictures of my birthday we had lots of fun!! okay so this morning Chris went outside in the backyard to find two ducks swimming in our pool!! He called Ashlyn and I both outside to see the ducks... it was fun to see but through out the day today they came back I guess are pool is becoming the local hang out pond for the ducks... and although its cute we really don't want duck poop in our pool so we left the pool gate open so that our bird dog duke would chase them away and he did I haven't seen a duck since he went out there! Okay so thats all I have time for right now Collin is ready to be put to bed as well as Ashlyn.

A couple of crazy weeks

Okay so its been a very long time since I posted last, but in my defense it has been very busy around here with Collins blessing and all the family that came in. It was so great to have my mom and dad here, we went to Disneyland and I didn't realize that my dad had never been before but for his first time it was unbelievably crowded, of course it was it was Saturday and it was spring break! Well despite the crowds we had a good time. We also had a great day swimming in the pool. Dad went down the slide and despite his valiant efforts Ashlyn would not go with him but my friends little boy ethan did.! I got the cutest little swim trunks for Collin they are red and have blue swordfish on them.... needless to say we got Collin into the spa for the first time and he loved it.

okay so there are some pictures of a family fun in the sun and the water...! Ashlyn looked so cute in her Easter dress I got some really cute pictures of her and her dad but as for Collin and I.. I totally spaced it I am still getting use to doing everything for two children instead of just one my whole way of doing things has changed and I am trying to get better at it hopefully my children will be patient with me!!! I love them both so much I hope I can be a good mother to both. So here are some Easter pictures of Ashlyn I did buy Collin a cute Easter outfit I will have to take some pictures of him in it even if it wasn't on Easter.

Well Chris's parents weren't able to be here for Collins blessing but they were there in our hearts.... but they were able to get her a couple of days afterward so we were able to spend time with them and they got to spend time with Collin and Ashlyn and how happy we were, they don't get to come down here very often the last time that Terri was here was when Chris and I were married so we were so excited to show them are little life that we have made for ourselves here in Southern California. I have more photos but I cant seem to find what file I put them in on my computer. We had lots of fun thanks for coming!!

I finally got the birth announcements made!

Okay here are the announcements that I will be sending out, so for those of you whom I don't have address for here is the announcement His name is Collin Stanley Durham he was born on the 19th of Feburary of 2008 at 7:49 A.M. he wieght was 8lbs and 4 oz. and he was 19 3/4 in. the pictures below are just 2 of like 5 pictures I will be sending out. I know I am slow to get things done but I tell you what getting back into baby mode has not been the easiest task!!! We are getting ready to bless Collin on the last Sunday of this month so that will be the 30th of March I am so excited that my parents will be able to make it I cant wait to see them and my dad will get to finally see our new little boy!! We are also going to be getting the kids pictures taken for easter so I hope to post some professional pictures soon. I have the cutest little outfits for Ashlyn and Collin both so hopefully Collin will be in a good mood as well as Ashlyn but my little girl loves to pose for pictures she is so camera friendly its funny well thats about it for right now.

I was tagged by my sister-in-law Michelle!!

A. The rules of the game are posted at the beginning.

B. Each player answers the question about themselves.

C. At the end of the post, the player then tags five people and posts their names, then goes to their blog and leaves them a comment, letting them know that they have been tagged and asking them to read your blog.

1. What was I doing ten years ago? Well lets see I was almost 17 so I was way into my boyfriend and getting into way to much trouble.. and all about my friends thinking that my life and my boyfriend and friends were the only thing that mattered in life oh the teenage years... I don't miss them at all!

2. Five things on my to-do list today: My list for today all depends on how much the baby will let me put him down!! I need to do 2 loads of laundry, I got my vacuuming done, I managed to even get the dust mopping done on the wood floors, now hopefully he will continue to be a good baby and let me put him down after he feeds to get dinner done later tonight. I also want to go and rent a movie for me and one for ashlyn and finish collin's birth announcements!!

3. What snacks do I enjoy? I love milk shakes!!! I also love chocolate chip cookies, I pretty much love sweets but I am trying to cut back gotta loose the baby weight

4. What would I do if I were suddenly a billionaire? I would have to say we would pay off all our bills including our house.. help family were they needed it and I would have to buy some Louie Vitton shoes and some Manolo blonik shoes I am in love with shoes!!! I would also make sure to keep some in the bank and make some good investments!!

5. Three bad habits: I like to procrastinate, I over think things to the point of panic attacks, I love to spend too much money on shoes... not just for me but for chris and my children as well.

6. Five Places where I lived: Twin Falls, Idaho, Sun Valley, Idaho, Perris, California, Riverside, California, and Murrieta California

7. Five jobs I have had: Certified nurses Aid, secretary, and leasing consultant

8. Five things people don't know about me: 1. I love to sing, I did singing lessons all through school. 2. I am addicted to tattoos, I already have two working on my third. 3. I have wanted to be a nurse since I was like 10 years old. 4. I thought my husband was a complete jerk when I first met him! 5. I am a neurotic mess most of the time but I take medication to keep myself in check!!

okay there you go that was my first time being tagged, I thought that I might have gotten away with not being tagged but she got me so I did it. well this week has been kind of crazy Collin is still trying to work out all the kinks of being a newborn so sleeping and everything else is new from day to day. Collin is a pretty high maintenance baby, more so then ashlyn was so I am trying to get use to doing everything including sleeping with a baby in my arms!! I so love my baby I just forgot how much work and how sleep deprived you are when you have a new baby!

On a lighter note, Ashlyn is so cute with Collin she loves to hold him and she is so patient with him when he cries she stands up with him and sways him and sings to him and just loves him and gets him to stop crying... I walked in on her doing that and it was so precious and it makes all the sleep deprivation and all your crazy emotions all worth while to see the little precious moments you kids have. I have the most great kids even if I only get to see how truly great they are at glimpses. Okay hopefully I can be a better blogger and post more often to keep you all updated and I enjoy writing about my life it helps put things into perspective it helps to step back and say its not so bad I am making it through and I am a good mom and life is pretty good.